I'm back to being depressed again =(. I haven't been this way in such a long time. Perhaps 3-4 years ago. I don't know why it suddenly happens again. Or maybe I know, just in denial. All the negative and suicidal thoughts that once crossed my mind a few years back, are there again . And I've lost interest in things that I usually enjoy doing. One of the symptoms of depression. I hope this won't last long. It sucks.
Maybe it's because of my decreasing results in school.
Maybe it's because there are so many things inside my mind right now.
Maybe it's because I feel betrayed by certain people, including some of my friends and the ones I thought I could trust.
Maybe it's because I'm disappointed with my parents and certain family members.
Maybe it's because I feel like such a fool for believing that certain someone.
Whatever the reason is, I just hope this goes away before I do something stupid.
I want to play a real piano.
I want to play the drums.
I want to play the electric guitar.
I want to go jamming.
I want to go for bungee jumping.
I want to join my friend sky diving.
I want to go to a party.
I want to go shopping.
I want to watch He's Not That Into You.
I want to watch all the movies I haven't seen at the cinema.
I wanna do all those things and forget about being stressed and depressed.
Maybe it's because of my decreasing results in school.
Maybe it's because there are so many things inside my mind right now.
Maybe it's because I feel betrayed by certain people, including some of my friends and the ones I thought I could trust.
Maybe it's because I'm disappointed with my parents and certain family members.
Maybe it's because I feel like such a fool for believing that certain someone.
Whatever the reason is, I just hope this goes away before I do something stupid.
I want to play a real piano.
I want to play the drums.
I want to play the electric guitar.
I want to go jamming.
I want to go for bungee jumping.
I want to join my friend sky diving.
I want to go to a party.
I want to go shopping.
I want to watch He's Not That Into You.
I want to watch all the movies I haven't seen at the cinema.
I wanna do all those things and forget about being stressed and depressed.
4 comments:
and i am back, yuhahahahaha.... have you forgotten me? why r u depressed?
i found u la=) after gone thru a min ur blog,now i kno dat there's alot u hide from me as ur bff ye.why lor?
Hehe. Sorry lah weh. Aku pun taktau kenapa aku suka berahsia. I just don't like expressing myself, talking about my feelings to others. Entah lah, aku takut orang akan judge kot. Walaupun aku tau kau dgn aneez takkan penah judge aku kan. =)
Tapi still aku pun tak tau kenapa aku jarang cakap pasal personal things dengan korang.
i kno dat part of u would never change=p i respect ur prinsip.but if u change ur mind,u kno where 2 find us=)
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