Believe

Do it slowly and someday, it will come true.

I'm getting there.

Bloody Hell

It's been a while since I last blogged. Hell, it's been quite a hectic month for me. Was busy with my group assignment. We're developing an application for the Symbian 3 phones, specifically the N8. I never thought that I could actually create such a thing but with the help of my 2 great groupmates, we did it. We actually created an application. But wow you don't know how hard it was. With more than 500++ information needed to be keyed into the databases, the CSS and Javascript programming, all that costs us our life, basically we didn't have a life outside of the computer lab for about a month. Overnighting at the campus, sleepless nights with the help of Redbull, coffee, snacks, candies and all sorts of unhealthy food. Some even brough pillows and blankets. Lol. There were nights where we all went crazy because we were all zombified because of lack of sleep. Hahahaha. But it was fun. Really. And finally it's done. =) We've uploaded our application on the Ovi Store and now we're just waiting for it to get approved by the QA. Hopefully all those sleepless and tiring nights on campus will get us the $4000. Haha.

Now this is talent =)

This is Greyson's first single. He didn't write this song but it's amazing anyway. The lyric is just so motivating and Greyson did an awesome job performing it. I was blown away by his performance given his only 13. His showmanship was amazing and he is so charismatic and mature for a boy his age. You should hear the songs he wrote, they're beautiful and you can't really believe that a 12 year old could write such meaningful and mature songs.




You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the daaay

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonnna walk ahead
if you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines


You’ll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?

Mission Accomplished

I wanted you to make me hate you.
But not this much. I find you to be very annoying.
By nevertheless, thank you. I officially don't like you. =)

Chasing Dreams

It ain't easy.
But I bet it's worth it.
Slowly getting there.
♥

Sigh

I had just met the most handsome man who's ever walked the face of this earth.
He's sooo handsome that when we shook hands and introduced ourselves, I couldn't even pay attention when he told me his name because I was too "busy" admiring his good looks and warm hands. =P
So yes, I did not get his name. Boooo Laila boooo hooo hoooooo! T___T
Hmm but I think I know his name but not quite sure if it's correct. =P

Sigh. Bila laa dapat jumpa dia lagi kan. But then again, he's too good looking to even want to be my friend. =\

Slowly Falling

Silence sits with me again tonight,
All alone yet with you by my side,
Your mind's not here it's with someone else.


I'm slowly...falling, I'm sorry.

Serabut

.serabut.

Sick Cycle Carousel

I like you
But I'm in love with someone else
But I like you
I really like you
But I'm in love with someone else
But I like you really
But I'm in love with someone else

Urrghh!

But he's in love with someone else
And so are you apparently
And the same goes with me too
But I really like you

An endless cycle
Unless
He forgets about her
And you forget about her
And I forget about him

What is this?

Rasa Macam Bangang and Bodoh Sangat

What made you an alley cat scratching me?
You dig deep with your nails and flash your teeth
And run off to where your next big meal could be

Pathetic

I am here still waiting,
Though I still have my doubt,
I'm hanging on another day,
Just to see what you will throw my way.

The curse that never ends

You're such a dick

Hung Up

Why do you have to be so fucking sweet?
Sometimes I wished that I never met you
I feel like such an idiot, been walking on this one way street for so fucking long
I just don't know why is it so hard to get over you
Why can't I just get over you?
This is stupid
I am stupid
Bleh...



You are so pathetic, Laila

Damn it was a huge mistake. The WORST feeling ever.

I need a distraction

Lesson of Life #5

"Dating involves people, and people...let you down"

I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You come out of nowhere and into my life

Richard Durand

This is a beautiful song indeed.



Your darkness grows
In feelings of loneliness
Every breath
As cold as ice
White lies are true painted black
Searching for some light to lead you back

Always the sun
After all
Always the sun
Like a wailing wall
Give me hope
Show some meaning

Always the sun
To strike a chord
Always the sun
To turn the world
Always

Your darkness grows
In feelings of loneliness
Every breath
As cold as ice
White lies are true painted black
Searching for some light to lead you back

Always the sun
After all
Always the sun
Like a wailing wall
Give me hope
Show some meaning

Always the sun
To strike a chord
Always the sun
To turn the world
Always

Andy who?

Have you listened to Tiesto's Who Wants To Be Alone featuring Nelly Furtado? Well, if you loved it. Check out Andy Diguid's remix of the song. It's even awesome-er, if that's even a word. Frankly speaking, Andy Diguid is fairly new to me. But by just listening a couple of his songs, I knew I just had to have all of this tracks in my playlist. So I did. =P And they were fuckin A. =D

What got me hooked was his remix of Tiesto's song and also this:



And it gets better, guess who's coming down all the way from the UK to spin at MOS Euphoria? YES. Mr. Duguid himself. He's coming down this 28th May, to put all you ravers out there into a trance. Don't need no drugs, don't need no silly hypnotism craps, just pure euphoric trance music is enough to make fly high.

Can't wait!

Oh by the way, check out his latest single, DejaVoodoo.




DejaVoodoo...that reminds me. You know how we sometimes feel like we've experience a particular situation before? Dejavu.

Okay so, my best dejavu experience ever was...

Well, a few years ago, when I was still at Taylor's College. We had this college event called "Local Artists Appreciation Night", where we invited a few local bands to perform. And I was in the event committee. We got a few bands and one of them was my favorite band, Dragon Red.

During their performance on stage, me and my friends went in front of the stage where there's this mini mosh-pit thing going on. Haha. Yeah we moshed, jumped, screamed, and even danced to the hard-rock music that they're playing. Lol. Then all of a sudden while enjoying myself, I felt like I've been here before doing the same thing. I was like, "This can't be?". Because that was the first time ever I saw them live.

Then after the event was over. I went backstage to settle some stuff. As I walked past the backstage entrance, that had "feeling" again, that I was here before and this thing somehow has happened before but I couldnt figure out when, and then one of my friends called me over saying that Dragon Red is heading back home and suggests we take pictures with them. I have been so busy earlier that day that I didn't get a chance to meet the band earlier on during soundcheck so of course I was excited to take photos. Hahaha. xD

So me and my friend Sarah took pictures with the band. And then Adam, one of Dragon Red's members, told me that I looked familiar. And I was a bit shocked considering we've never met before. But he was sure he had met me somewhere. Then I said, "Oh maybe you saw my avatar on Jamtank Forum?" Because I used to always go on Jamtank Forum to checkout the latest things on music there and he posts there occasionally too. Then he said, "Oh yeah maybe" and gave me a friendly goodbye hug.

Aaaah. That was the best dejavu experience evaarr! I got to see my favorite band live, I got to take pictures with them, I got a chance to chat with them for a while, and best of all, one of the members (if not all) recognizes me! Hahaha. How often does that happen? =P

Hurrah!

For the first time ever in my 22 years of life, I finally own something that is, well, you can say one of the latest gadgets, if not the most sophisticated/expensive, like iPhone or BB. But it's a pretty nice device none the less.

Thanks to my dad, I got my very first "canggih" phone, my very first smartphone. Haha!

Okay well, it's not a full spec smart-phone, but it does have wi-fi, a decent megapixel camera, touch screen, a full slide-out QWERTY keyboard, document reader (PDF, Microsoft Office), social-networking apps like FB, Youtube, Myspace, Twitter, Flickr, and some others, downloadable widgets, and some other cool stuff.

Oh and the best thing is, it's got Google Map!

Okay I know most phones now have GPS, but hey, Google Map isn't that bad, you just need an internet connection to view it unlike GPS where u can just use it anywhere outdoor. But at least I won't be having trouble finding my way around town anymore. =P

The price isn't that bad either. For a phone with all those features, it's a pretty good deal.

Doesn't matter if it's not "full spec" smart-phone which can edit Word files, or have 3G, GPS, Symbian/Android/Apple/Windows OS...blablabla. I don't need all those unnecessary features anyway.



*Yeh nak belagak jap. Hahaha. Sebab tak penah ada benda canggih sebelum ni. =P But I know most of you by now have had countless of mobile phones/gadgets throughout your lives and most probably own a much more sophisticated and trendiest gadgets of all. Haha. So...heh.


*AT LAST! Rosak jugak Sony Ericsson W300i tu. Mwahahaha, ingatkan tanak rosak2. Kalau tak, tak dapat beli baru. =P

x

The life I never had.
Fuck.
You stole it from me, betch.

Hello Seattle

Take me above your light
Carry me through the night
Hold me secue in flight
Sing me to sleep tonight

♥

I miss you.
Wish we could hang out as often as we did before.

This isn't real, is it?

Please let me wake up from this nightmare

Tro lo looo

Ok mood untuk buat assignment dah finally datang. ALHAMDULLILAH. Due dates are just 3-4 weeks from now and I've got about 5 projects and 1 dissertation to finish up and every thing is just only about 10% done. So I'm gonna need all the luck I can get.

Okay, I'm starting off with web design. Hopefully to have it done by this weekend.

Kthnxbai.

Heaven on Earth

Here are the list of places that I consider heaven on earth:
*in no particular order

- Wisma Bentley, Damansara
- Lowyat Plaza
- Toys Я Us
- Kinokuniya, KLCC
- Borders
- Popular Bookstore, Sunway Pyramid
- Virgin Megastore
- Japan. FOOD GALORE! =9
- Shopping malls in Abu Dhabi & Dubai
- Auto dealers in Abu Dhabi & Dubai
- Chocolate shops in Switzerland.
- Surfers Paradise, Gold Coast. ;)
...and last but not least
- Cold Storage. Hahaha.

Libra

Was just reading the latest Cleo mag when I came across this in the horoscope section:



"If you let shyness hold you back, you'll lose out so put yourself first and go after who you want."



Ha ha. Easy to say eh.

Sigh

I miss Taekwondo,
I miss Capoeira,
I miss squash,
I miss kickboxing,
I miss swimming,
I miss skateboarding,
I miss doing sports.

But I just can't afford to burden my parents and ask them for money for me to join all those activities again.
:'(

Untitled

Remember when you asked me what would I do if some guy just walks up to me and said he wants to kiss me? Remember what I said I would do?

I said, I'll kiss him back if I like him.

---

So then a guy said he wants to kiss me.

And I just let him. It may be just a kiss, it might mean nothing to him. But I still just let him. Do you know why?

Wow

4 jenis makanan dalam masa 3 jam.
I ate because I forgot that I've actually eaten 2 meals... just 2 hours earlier. T__T

Piece of shit

Bodoh sial
Bodoh sumpah bodoh

Dearest friend,

We hope you've think about it thoroughly. We know it's hard for you to go through all those but just please think about your future, think about your own self. Is that what you really want? If so, do you really think that it's for the best? Sorry but we just don't see it that way. We care about you, we really do. And we'd hate to see you get hurt again. We'd hate to see you be treated like that again, especially when there is nothing that we could do. We felt so useless. You are a person, a living person with feelings, with dignity. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY, in their right fucking mind can ever treat another person like that. What would you do if the same thing happened to your sister? What's your advice to her?
How we wish we could turn back time too, but unfortunately we can't. So please, that's all we're asking.
It does take time. But please?


Yours sincerely,
Your caring friends.

Drools

Let's rock bebehh!

Lies Left Untold.

Went and gave their music a listen on Myspace. Awesome! It's hard to find local post-hardcore/screamo bands that are good.

Can't wait. =)

Hope I'll be a good enough guitarist. :P

Unlike punk rock, this won't be as easy.

Now all I need to do is practice practice and lotsa practice.

I Miss =(

Hahaaha go on, laugh, bersih sangat kan deck tu? Lol.
*sigh* Wish I had the balls to start skateboarding again, oh wait, I don't .Hahaha. Heh. Aneez pun dah give up so I'm left alone. I don't know when will I have the confidence to go a skatepark by myself. Every weekend I kept motivating myself to come to Mont Kiara early in the morning before my drumline practice starts, so that I would have time to skate and also because the skatepark would be empty ando I'd have the park all on my own and no one can see me skate like a bloody monkey. Hahaha. But, I still don't have the guts to go. =(
Tolong la sapa2 yg dah quit tu, please start balik and accompany me? =P
Aaaaaah gian nya nak skate. Demmit.

Tahi

Last Saturday, I got a job as an event photographer for P&G's Business Challenge. It wasn't much but I had to rush to 4 different locations within 4 hours to take photos. With the traffic and distance between Klang, Kelana Jaya, Kota Damansara, and Puchong, I didnt manage to get to all 4. I only managed to get to Klang and Kelana Jaya. But I did reach Kota Damansara but the event there has ended. I was walking around the Giant concourse looking for the event booth but couldn't find it so I ask one of the Giant's staff, the manager on duty if I'm not mistaken. And boy he was RUDE! I asked him nicely if he knows where the booth is. But he said he didn't know anything about the P&G challenge. I was surprised because he's the manager and he was supposed to know about it. Plus, those participants met him on Thursday. So anyways, I explained and described the event nicely to him but he said, "Saya takkan layan awak kalau tak register." With this unpleasant tone and facial expression. Pukimak la kau. Dah la on Thursday pun he was being super extra rude and cocky to us. Even the other staff, who is more superior than him, was polite to us. The nicer staff spoke to us nicely and told us things we should and should not do. But the stupid cocky bastard was yelling like an imbecile. Pffft. Jangan pandang rendah sangat even if we're still students. Walaupun pangkat tinggi tapi kau tu kerja Giant je tak payah nak cocky sangat la uncle. Belagak. Pfft! Sakit hati aku haritu. It was a very stressful day. I was so scared that the P&G boss would get mad me at me since I managed to get photos at only 2 of the locations. Then at 7pm was supposed to be the dinner, at Italiannies, Sunway Pyramid. So I went there at 7pm but then the event started at 8pm until 9pm. But we agreed on the quotation I send earlier that it was supposed to start at 6pm till 9pm. At the end of the day, the boss told me to revise the quotation. I was fine with it because since I was not able to go to the other 2 locations earlier but the dinner shouldn't be counted as well since it them who came late, not me. Haih. Anyway I was too pissed with that asshole Giant staff to care about anything. Bodoh. Oh and I sent a complaint to Giant via their website. I hope they'll do something about it.

But all in all it was a fun experience, I get to met and talk to many people. A great thing to boost my confidence level. =P

Back for some action

Feels good to be back at the gym again after 2 months of AWOL.

Anyways, aaaaa lamanya tak clubbing. Hahaha. =P

Jyeah!

I don't need to take MUET and I won't be having any exams at all throughout my degree course, everything will be 100% project-based. Yes that means no academic reading whatsoever. =D

Unbelievable

Blah la berlagak sombong. Tak payah nak poyo sangat lah ok. Pffft. Bajet betul.

Dreams

SCAD. Keep that in mind. That's where you wanna go, so aim high and you'll get there.
Fresh start, from zero. So better not screw it up. Remember, SCAD!

Hurrah!

My mean machine is back! Let the video games marathon begin.

But it's not so mean anymore. =(

Meaner machines have came out since I bought mine. =\

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly

.Call me crazy but those 4 letters are better than nothing at all.

=)

=(

So that's it, huh.

I didn't have thought that they'd be so "okay" about it. Hmm, but then I guess there's nothing they can do anyway. It's my choice, my life I'm fucking with. I know what's best for me, I know what I'm capable of and what I'm not. So they just got along with it. Heh, it's like the 3rd time already. I guess they just don't know what to say. I hope I won't fuck this one up. It's my last chance. I can't fuck around anymore. I kept saying that to myself but I hope, I really hope that this time I can keep that promise. It's your life Laila, you fuck it up now, your future and your whole life will be fucked up. So fuckity fuckity fuck fuck lotsa fucks in this post. Haha.


So, hello 2010. To a new year, a new life, a new environment, a new start. Fuck.

Oops terjatuh

I kept falling but nobody's there to catch me.