Another day goes by...

...and all I can say is, wish I could forget you.

Terperangkap

Tangled up in the strings of lust,
Lost in a sea of euphoria,
And so I fell,
By my own careless imprudence.

And so I tell myself,
Countless of times,
"Stop, deny, refuse."

But this cycle nevers ends,
It's like an infinite loop,
It's bound to happen again.

Trapped in my own labyrinth,
I cannot stand any further,
And I sure as hell cannot wait any longer.

I have no business here,
To be stuck in the same monotonous routine.

I need to go,
I need a map to guide me through it,
I need to find a way to be happy,
I need some time away, to find myself.

And together my friends,
We'll conquer the world,
Climb the highest mountains,
Swim the seven seas,
Get lost in the foreign world,
Suck in all the experience.

Together, we grab life by the horns,
And die in the ecstasy of endless dreams and adventures.

What Ifs

I wish I never met you.
But somehow I'm kind of happy that I met you.
Everything happens for a reason I guess.

I just really wish it didn't have to end this way.

Would it have been different if I told you how I feel earlier?
Would it even matter?
Would you have stayed?

Here I am again

Wow it's been a while since I last posted here. Been pretty busy with work. Working up to almost 10 hours per day 6 days a week. I absolutely have no life now. Sunday is like the most sacred day ever right now. But I try not to sleep in on Sundays. I would go out and do things I didn't get to do during my working days. Or just watch some movies/TV series that I have piled up on utorrent. Or just simply chill and play the piano or guitar. I used to go hiking and trail running almost every Sunday but now I don't have the energy anymore. I haven't even been going to the gym for almost a month but my friend just told me I lost weight, despite all the junks and fast food I've been omnomnom-ing at the office. Must be the stress and lack of sleep. I miss all that adventure. I miss hiking. I miss the adrenaline rush.

I love my job, I honestly do. I'm blessed to be working with the most awesome co-workers, working on an international feature film. Something that I never did imagine doing for my first ever real job as a fresh graduate. But I'm just too tired right now. My body is aching all over and I couldn't even wake up every morning without feeling so lethargic, without my body aching. =\

I hope this will end in a few weeks time after we've sent this film to the Comic-Con. I hope we do get that 1 week off. I really need it. We all need it. I wanna go off to some island and chill and clear my mind off things. Really painful things.

*Dear you: I passed by your area this evening on the way back home from meeting my friend. I wish I didn't have to but it was late and I didn't wanna take the longer route. I couldn't hold it in and burst into tears, all the way home. It's only been a short while, but I'm missing you already. I love you. I really do.