My Sick Mind Speaks: May 2006

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

And all that I am is just a tragedy

I'm scared. Really scared right now. I dont know what to do. Maybe I
should sleep in the car with the AC on and all the windows shut. No one would notice, the car is quiet. I've been thinking of doing that alot. But I'm scared. Scared to live, scared to die. I'm just a useless piece of shit. If you read my blog in Myspace you'll know why. Those are SOME of the reasons. I really dont know what do to now. I'm just this stupid cunt, ugly loser, dumbfuck, etc etc. I dont do well in my studies, I dont have a happy family, everybody hates me, I dont dress nicely, when I go out everyone stares and bitch at me, I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm useless, I'm stupid, I'm dumb (even dumber than Dumber in the movie Dumb and Dumber), I'm all alone in this world.