k..here goes...i'm gonna write it again...

i'm at the library now...my computer still has problems. it can start and all but the screen was like showing lotsa colors...haha. i dont know howta explain it but it sux. maybe it's the monitor's driver. hafta find the driver CD...haih. dont know where my dad put it.

hmmmmm....

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NEWS FLASH:ALL MY FILES ARE GONE!!!! AARGGH!!! i am so....pissed?mad?sad?frustrated?fucked up?...i dunno...u tell me...imagine all ur 500++ mp3s, 20++ music videos, movies, the cool pics/graphics/icons, pics of ur favorite bands/artists, tht u've downloaded AND photoshop artworks, homeworks, assignments, lab reports, etc....all gone..boom...bam..swoosh...zap...gone...deleted, just like that....what would u do??how do u feel??..huh??! huh??! tell me!!! tell me!!! i spent months downloading all those mp3s, movies, music vids, and viva la bam...and now it's gone...and i hv to download em all over again....waaaa....

ok...lets change the subject...this is too frustrating... =((

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lets see.......i had just done the layout design for Flipside's Movie Review and Dining Review and uploaded it. pheew! so what else do i hv to do...? oh ya..programming. Shit man! i cant seem to download the JGrasp from this stupid library pc and also from the student lounge...so how the hell am i gonna do the programming work!!! all the programs and files in my computer have been deleted and there's something wrong wit the internet connection at home so i cant download it...so how???? fuck la wei...
@@$$&%@$&@%#$!!!!!!!!!

ooo-kk...lets change the subject again...this time, lets talk about something happy...

My dad's application for a transfer to Emirates Airlines has been accepted!!! yippee!!! so tht means where r gonna move to Du-fucking-bai...hehe..i mean Dubai, UAE. lolz. insyaallah, we r going there in December and we'r gonna stay in Abu Dhabi for about 2-3 weeks. then maybe next year my dad's gonna transfer there and probly when i've transfered to US or Aussie (end of next year of early 2007...hopefully), my mom & bro r gonna move to Dubai. so bubye Malaysia...hehe. oh...so...i hv one whole year next year without my dad...mwahahahahaha!!! >:) heheh...
uh man, i hafta learn Arabic. well, i had learnt some Arabic when i was in primary skool but then i forgot.... i only know a few words in Arabic...lolz.

okies..tht's all for today...penat ady...lolz.
oh man...2moro's Saturday??? i hate weekends...

u know what? i was writing one long blog and then i clicked "submit". suddenly before my post was uploaded, server down and i hv to like write it all over again? dammit! i'll write it again later. pissed rite now..sheesh.

oh god!!! i am sooooooooooooooo dang cold!!!!!!!!!! =S i've been here for like more than 1 hour and i thnk i will freeze any moment now...brrrrrr....hmmm...today, chem quiz! i studied last nite. so blh la buat sket2...haha. ooookkk....tht's it..ima go now...cant stand the cold...fuuh..oh god!!! i am sooooooooooooooo dang cold!!!!!!!!!! =S i've been here for like more than 1 hour and i thnk i will freeze any moment now...brrrrrr....hmmm...today, chem quiz! i studied last nite. so blh la buat sket2...haha. ooookkk....tht's it..ima go now...cant stand the cold...fuuh..

at the student lounge now and i am literally freezing to death!!! it's soooo damn fucking cold in here!!!!!!!! my friggin computer isnt working...rosak..cant start...and i;m soo pissed cuz i cant do my homeworks. aarggh! la

Last week:
.....was HELL!!! i lost the cover of my mp3, i was so broke, my pc buat hal....kept restarting by itself and now i wont start at all! and then so many bad things happened la..aihs! but then my dad came home from work and gave my allowance...yippee! hehe....he asked me whether it's enuff or not..and i said,"no". so he gave me extra 50 bucks...hehehe...

Monday>> woah...RM100 gone just like dat in only like 3-4 days??? wat did i bought?? damn...aihs...
Yes...it's monday. the weekend's finally over! i hate weekends..seriously. cuz my weekends r boring. i got nuttin to do...just stay at home watch tv, play games, chat..and all tht..damn it's boring. hmm...during calculus, Asim gv me a cigarette...ehehe...actually..he wasnt serious...he saje2 bagi...and then after class, he wanted it back..and i said i dont hv it..i threw it...haha...rite...he checked my pencil case and asked, Where is it?!. Laila, u better gv me the cigarette. DO NOT smoke it!...i'll kill u if u do." yeah..he was serious... he smokes alot...but he wont let anyone smoke...haha..but i didnt gv him and i said i wont smoke..dont worry. and he said, ok.DONT smoke. if i smell ur breath of smoke i will kill u, seriously. and he went to class.then after chemistry...i went outside at sit at the stairs...and reached my pocket,took out the cigarette and...............light it and smoke.......yep...meh, no big deal...it wasnt my first time anyway. and then went for a lunch at Secret Recipe wit Mawar. i ate soba and oreo cheese cake and it was cheesylicous..lol...Dang! 24 bucks for just one lunch?!.....haha...giler la...then went to comp lab. then, at nite i smsed Asim, told him tht i smoked tht cigarette he gv. and he replied: "what the hell u crazy girl ....blablablabla.... u are dead 2moro in college." and i was like chill man chill..haha..and he rplied. "u are dead 2moro seriously" and i was like...man, was he serious???

only got calculus 2day..chem was cancelled. after calculus Asim challenge me in NFSU again =S...but luckily the video game shop wasnt open yet...hehe...so we lepak2 with Raje, Syamil and Ayesha at the cafe, drinking beers and smoking weed...lol..just kidding!..we were just drinking some beverages and smoking...everyone was smoking except me n syamil..haha..but tempted gak nak smoke...wakaka. Raje lak mkn nasi lemak..ahaha. And as usual laa...klu dah lepak ngn Asim ngn Raje, borak mende2 ngarot ar..hahah...diorg tuh mmg ...ckp main lepas je...talking crap.lol.ade ke ptt td diorg cam insult islam...bengongs tol....dah la ari jumaat...man, it was just crazy la...they said they wanna drink beer at the mosque b4 the friday prayers, pray 6 times a day...and said to god,"i prayed 6 times a day, tht's more thn other ppl did..i should go to heaven" and then god would say,"what the fuck? u should go to hell!"...tak ke bengongs?..mcm2 la....tht's just fucking...i dunno laa...haih...man, if u hang out with those 2, u will be laughing all the time la...mmg gile2..hakhak. but 2day was bengong laa...dosa2...i thnk i will be zapped by a lightning and go to hell, man...=S or as Asim said ,"...will be sucked into a hole underground cuz lighting need lots of energy and god wouldnt wanna waste energy on ppl like us..." ahahahahahah!

then after tht, i went to 12th floor to do some calculus homework while waiting for the Flipside graphics team meeting...and...guess what..only two ppl came for the meeting...Me and Syed Amir...wakaka..sedey btol..so the meeting was only about 5 minutes...lol...he told me to choose which article i want to edit the graphics etc..tht's all la...lol...then went for lunch at the cafe...had nasi goreng with some kind of...grilled chicken chop.... not bad..

then i walked home. as soon as i got home, i turned on the computer and tv...haha...as usual. and then i played Red Alert 2 until like 7 or 8 o'clock man. hehe...yeah..i am addicted to Red Alert 2. I used to hv Red Alert 1 on PS but it got lost.....i missed tht game...but at least i got RA2 and Renegade on the computer.....hehe..i completed like more than 6 soviet missions 2day. SOVIETS RULE!!! FIGHT FOR MOTHER RUSSIA!!! lol...

i just wish i know all the answers...
i just wish tht life doesnt hate me...
i just wish i could get out of all this pain...
...and i just wish......i just wish tht i could just disappear...

life sucks.

i'm feeling down today

ADP SUX!!!! All Day Party la konon..ahaha...perh..but there's onl one thing i like bout ADP:
i got to know lotsa ppl from other countries...lotsa friends from diferent races, countries...which is cool and fun..hehe

heheh..Mawar...happy ler ko ek. Jon dah dtg..wakaka...hmm, ade la semangat nk gi class..hahah. tp rambut die da tak terpacak ar..tak hensem sgt..ahaks. hmm..oh yeah...on monday, this reeaaaallly good looking chinese dude said hey and smile at me but i didnt smiled back =S...i guess i was kinda terkejut la ..haah..stupid me...anyways, he's in my chem lab, chem class AND calculus class, so i can usha him everyday...ahahah..but Melvin is still on my top list..hakhak...siot..siot..gi kolej bkn nk blaja..haihs..wakaka. And yesterday, Asim kicked my ass in Need For Speed: Underground 2 and Midnight Club for like a hundred times, man....dang! bengang tol...ok, Asim, if u're reading this---> so yeah, u own me this time..i know i suck, ok...so u won..u da man, Asim...wateverrr!!! oh hey wait, u didnt win anything yet my friend...remember i said tht i will beat u using a SKYLINE?..not a LANCER...I did not use a skyline yesterday, ok. eheheh...sooo...haha..and one more thing Mr. Superman, u will be eating MY dust in Red Alert 2...hehe. cuz I OWN RED ALERT 2, man....

so anyways, back to my blog, ok so i managed to beat him on the last race in Midnight Club...mwahahaha....sheesh...tp bengang btul...haih..i cant concentrate la. Asim n Raje wont stop talking, and swearing and jerit2..cane nak tumpukan perhatian..tht's why my car crashed here, there, everywhere..ahahaha..dah la ngn asap rokok lg...adeh...not fair! hahah

umm..today:-
as usual...kene buli ngn Asim lg...ahaha..well, not really buli la...but he always tease me la...ever since i sat beside him in calculus.....lol...but 2day i did not sat beside him but still...haih...we were at war!!! ahaha...since yesterday...Paper war to be exact...wakaka...throwing small piece of crumpled papers...hihi...

and then at 2 pm got chem lab..aarrgh! bengang tol ngn sorg lab partner aku nih..sume nye nak perfect..urgh! ntah pape tol...acting like she knows everything..fuck la,man...br 1st sem dah ngade2...haih..nevermind, this time i sabar je...but next time, i wont.....tp nasib baik this sem dpt 2 lab partner..ahaha..sorg dr Myanmar sorg Bangla..yg Bangla tu la yg ngade2 tuh..sakit ati tol.

ok..tht's it...my finger's are killing me...lol.