I have nothing

i don't;
get good grades
have good looks
have nice clothes
have nice house
have many friends
have a happy family
have a life
have someone who cares
have someone who listens
feel happy

but

i do;

have stupidity
have crappy house
have crappy clolthes
have stupid style
have a fucked up family
have a sad life
hate my life
hate myself

Family crisis?

Last week's episode of Gol dan Gincu; Eddy's family reminded me of my own family. Except that I don't have a hot guy as my younger brother and I'm not as pretty as Eddy's elder sister, I'm not going to New York and my brother isn't studying in Aussie. Lol.

So anyway...well, at least my parents aren't fighting like Eddy's parents. At least not anymore. They used to fight a lot back then when I was young. Sometimes I even wonder if they would get a divorce. But until now they're still together =). Maybe it was because my brother and I were still too young and they wouldn't want us to grow up without one parent, or maybe just because my mom is one strong woman =). All these years, my mom had coped with my dad's temperament. I respect my mom and envy her strength and patience. But somehow I didnt inherit that value, I ended up acting like my dad. A person who gets mad easily, NOT patient at all, blablabla. *sigh* I wanna change. I wanna be someone better someone useful.

Fucked up circadian rhythm..must reset biological clock!

Dancing in moonlight ...everybody's dancing in the mooooonlightttt ...lalallalal . Lol. Actually that's the song I'm listening to right now Dancing In The Moonlight by Toploader, soundtrack from A Walk To Remember. The soundtrack got great songs . Hehe. Gosh, I'm kinda confused right now...everything's like blurry ...thought it was daytime . Didn't sleep the whole night last night...well I slept la like 30 minutes. Why? Well, I was photoshop-ing...heh. Sat in from of the laptop for like more than 5 hours. I know...bad very bad. Went to bed at 5 something then couldn't sleep. Until 6 something then I realized I had to wake up at 7.30 cuz I had to go for the driving workshop! Shit! Finally 7 something I fell asleep. Woke up at about 8 am at the sound of my mom shouting. The alarm, which I suppose was ringing since 7.30am, was still ringing. Well, I heard the alarm rang but weird thing is..I couldn't wake up..I was like half asleep. Yeah...REM sleep...hehe...all your muscles are paralized when you're in this state of sleep and if you suddenly woke up during REM sleep, you can't move...you're awake but you're paralized. Lol. Learnt that in Psychology 201 .

Ahh well...the workshop today was alright I guess. Was sleepy the whole time. Nasib baik it was only 3 hours. Then this Friday is the 3-hour practical. After that, I'll get my L license. Was suppose to go to Taylor's Music Club meeting for the rock band division that day but had to cancel. According to Joyce they're gonna discuss about the "trip" to the Rocksafe gig this Saturday. O well, I'll just ask her later about the meeting.

Aaarghh! I missed Joyce's beer and cake party at Asia Cafe yesterday! Woke up late . It was her 18th birthday. She said at the end of the party, the leftover cake was thrown at her face. LOL! Damn I should have come...haha...then I can throw the cake too. Hahaha.

Took me about 3-5 hours just to do this :

Funny...how I can stay up late, concentrate and do stuff with Photoshop for hours but when it comes to other important things like doing assignments/homeworks/etc. I couldn't even last for 1 hour.

It's over!

Yeay! They finals are over and the holidays have started. But only 2 weeks tho . But it's better than nothing. Lol. Anyway...aaaaaaaaaaaaa...got my Psychology result already! Just did the paper on Friday morning and then in evening, I checked the Blackboard site and the results were there like what the fuck I just did the paper like in the morning ! I got 70% thats like a fucking C! Aaargh! But my marks for most of the assignments/quizzess/etc were just around the average so I sure hope Mrs. Singh would curve the final grade, if she does I might get a C+ or a B- or B. O please please let her curve the grade . Oh but then my friend told me that Mrs. Singh havent add our presentation marks yet. Pheww! Thank god!

And I bought the bass boost earphone! Wheeee..... It's not the same model. The one I want wasnt available so I bought another model but the difference is just that the one I wanted was silver and had the ear clip thingy. So the one I bought is cheaper laa, about RM75. The earphone rocks ! The bass is chun man. It's great when you're listening to trance/club music. Especially stuff like Benassi. Haha. It goes like dub dub dub or boom boom boom! It's awesome. But I still think a headphone is better la cuz its like big and it covers your ears but headphones like that are too expensive lar. Huhu. Then, I bought She's The Man and The Jacket DVDs. The DVDs are about 12 ringgit each and they original like wwaahh...the pirated DVDs at Subang Square costs 10 ringgit...wtf ...heh. Add another 2 ringgits dah boleh beli the original one. Ape daa mahal sgt. Hish. Hmm...I wanted to buy A New World too but tak cukup duit . Nvm, next time.

Wheee...I went for the theory class for driving last week. Hehe. Actually last Saturday was the test but the systems were offline...heh. So today I'm going lah... hope I pass then I can get my L license. Aahhh anyway...glad that the semester is over, now I can finally relax and read all of the books I bought and watch movies and photoshop some pics. But one thing that's sad is, last Thursday was the last time I saw him . He's going to transfer to another college but he's still gonna be around here tho. Hmm, but then again, it's not like I'm gonna see him anyway . O well, at least I still get to chat with him .