When I thought I’ve forgotten everything

After all these times, I suddenly thought of him.
Thought I've erased everything.
I guess it wasn't completely gone from my memory.
Maybe I missed him, or...maybe not.
Says he missed me. Doubt that.
It's been 2 years and now, he has finally confirmed my surmise.
I don't even know why I had asked him that stupid question in the first place.
I knew the answer would have hurted so much.
Because I already knew the answer, I always did.
But somehow, I just needed him to say it to me himself.
Why would he do such things when he knew he couldn't be with me?
He couldn't or doesn't want to?
Yeah, some stupid reason he gave.
Fuck that.
Said he loved me.
Fuck that too.
Left me in the dark all alone, leaving me confused, letting me figure it all out by myself.
All I have to do now is disappear.

went to watch transformers again wednesday haritu. best! me, anzs, jee, putri, fify, perang n his friend, slim. then fight after the movie anzs had to go back home. pastu jln2 kat ou jap. took some photos at dreamworld...hohoh. sangat gay ok. tapi klaka.

Transformers lagi sekali please

Yess nak pegi tengok Transformers lagi esok! Ngeee...

I am sooo clueless! Gaaahh! I dont know what should I do . I've never felt this way before.

Another...

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Just one thing...

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I was reading my previous blogs back till 2004 and I found this. Hahahhaha. It was the most memorable moment at ADP.

RESULTS are out!!!

OMGOMGOMG!!! I got 3.2 gpa!!!!!!!!! I know I know it's not much but I'm just so excited and happy and yipeee yaa yeayy! Back when I was at Taylor's, I never got anything above 2, hahhaha . That's how stupid I was. I think I've finally found the right thing to do, the right major, the right thing to study . Hehehe. BTw, I got an A- in Computer Graphics! Waheeyy! My favorite subject. Hehee. This coming semester we're learning Photoshop and hopefully I can score better the that. Hehe.

Anyway, I've beat MGS 2 on the XBox , and overall:


Hahahaa. Wasnt that good anyway.

Haarr! If I be a pirate, I be Turner's wife. Haarr!

Went to watch Pirates of The Caribbean 3 for the 2nd time todayh . Harhar . Twas a great movie Pirates 3 is. Then I bought like 3 sets of takoyaki. OMG! Gile sedap sunggoh dah lame tak makan. Actually kan, 3 sets really wasnt enough. I need more takoyaki! Anyway, sabtu nih we're going for a go-kart race bebeh! Lama sudah tak racing (chewaah cam pro la pulak, padahal baru maen bape kali). Hmm, today, I have no idea why, but I felt so happy and excited. Maybe because I feel that I'm getting closer to him. Hmmm...ntah la. Maybe it's just my feelings. He only sees me as a friend , just a friend anyway. *sigh* Or at least thats what I think...I dunno... aaahh . DUUHH! of course he sees me as only a friend! That's what every other guys I met think of me. Just a friend .

Hoh lame sudah tak update blog yg dah penoh ngn cobwebs

Wuhuhuhu...insomnia? Tah le. It's 3.08AM in the frikkin morning and I'm wide awake. Tak boley tido dan bosan! Boley mati kebosanan. Tatau ape yg merepek nih nak tido tapi tak ngantok nak buat ape tatau nak buat ape so tulis blog ni dadadadalalallala saya bosan esok nak pegi Shah Alam beli dvd game XBox lagi dengan banyak bersama adik dan lepas tuh nak maen XBox sampai lebam dah puas maen CnC3 kat PC susah amat sangat NOD bodo pegi launch nuclear awal sangat apesal nak maen Sims Life Stories tapi macam dah bosan nak tengok Casanova tapi dah lewat sangat nak tidooooo esok bangun pagi lepas beli game nak sambung tengok House season 3 speaking of tv series bile Heroes volume 2 nak kuar tak sabar dah ni apesal Sylar-muke-cam-Hameed-ganteng tak mati2 lagi ape jadi ngn the 2 Petrellis dah pegi outerspace kah? okbyeoutpeaceciaoz.