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Monday, August 10, 2009

So they say, if you don't study and don't get a degree, you'll end up like this





Yeah, and whoever they are, they are damn right. I won't be able to pursue my dreams, being a woman with a professional career, buy a really posh and modern studio loft/apartment in the city over-looking the ocean, own an awesome car, live a sophisticated life, basically, living the life I wanted.

But, I am a girl/woman/female, I will never live that life. Women will almost always end up marrying someone. Once we get married, we can never get everything done they way we wanted, we'll have husbands to consider. Then we'll have children, hah!, that's when everything gets complicated (don't get me wrong, I love kids, I really do Pat pat). Time to say goodbye to our beloved career, all those 12 years of ABCs and getting scolded for not scoring in major exams PLUS another 4 years of living hell at college, kaboom! Just like that, all our lives' effort gone just like that. Oh not to mention all the money that our dads wasted for all those years. See, this is when I start to question myself: Why do I get all miserable when I don't get at least 3.0? Why do I get depressed when I get Cs?

I just have to pass! Dammit! Just fucking pass. Just get it over with. Finish college. I don't need 4.0. I don't need all As and Bs. I just need a PASS. I won't be able to be a full time creative director or a professional VFX supervisor or whatever it is. I'm gonna get married someday and have kids and I'm gonna have to do the laundry, cook meals and shit. That degree is just a piece of paper that will be hung on the living room wall someday for people to see, "Ahh you've got a degree! How wonderful!". Yeah and for what? I've been working, studying, busting my shit out in school and college for what in the end? So that I could get a crappy piece of paper that I could frame and hang on the wall for decoration and bragging purposes? Pfffftt!




But then again, what if I can't have kids, what if my husband dies, or worst, what if I never get married, what if no one wants to marry me, what if I were to be alone all my life?
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