Padan dengan muka kau. Tu lah sape suruh. Ngada2. Entah pape.
Dah bengap sangat kan. Pastu mula lah nak buat perangai tu lagi. Aku cukup benci sunggoh. Macam sial pun ada. Selalu lah macam tu. Jadi gila pun boleh. Agaknya lama-lama nanti jadi gila lah. Tunggu masa je ni.
Blogging ni bagus kan. Boleh releasekan segala-gala. The blog won't judge you. It won't ask you a lot of questions.
This is the life of the mentally-ill youth.
Now what? Babi la. Ni yang aku benci. Terasa macam deja-vu pun ada. Memang deja-vu pun tapi still buat jugak walaupun dah pernah mengalami nya. Yes what the heck yang sedang aku merepek ni. Nothing you need to know, nothing you need to understand.
Sumpah I'd do anything to get rid of this. Sumpah sumpah. The thing I hate the most. Tapi macam mana nak get rid of it. Fuck tu aku tak tau. Serabut serabut. Please please please. Anything. Even if costs a fortune. Duit boleh di cari.
Perasaan tu masih ada cuma lama tak fikir pasal tu.
The feeling of being a loser is slowly crawling back into me.
Lailaaa please will you? Tolonglah tolonglah berfikir macam orang normal. Don't be so bengap boleh tak?
Punches on the wall, hard knocks on my own head, random hittings of other objects. Marah kat diri sendiri, scold lah diri sendiri, biar rasa sakit, baru tau. Semua tu perbuatan orang gila macam yours truly.
Perlukan dadah dari doctor untuk solution. Judge me all you want. Call me crazy. Call me a lunatic. Call me a psycho.
I really feel like crying now. I wanna cry out loud.
And I'm not just PMS-ing.
Okay,
Thanks. =)
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This blog contains mostly about my feelings, thoughts, and other personal stuff. Most of it are direct or spontaneous thoughts from my mind, so you may or may not understand certain posts that I've written. That is because this blog is used as a tool to express my thoughts and feelings about everything around me, as I am unable to do so to a person because I just don't like doing so and I am not good at expressing myself verbally. I also used some Spanish languages in this blog in case you haven't already noticed, just to practice and improve my Spanish and also to uhh...keep some things a secret. =p But if you managed to decode it, just keep it to yourself okay. =)
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